This song could have easily been called “Frustrations” because that’s what this song is basically about. Just a lot of pent up anger and frustration that I needed to let out. Though I wanted it to be a bit more conceptual than that. I always had an idea for a song to be centered around the microphone that I record on, though nothing pieced together how I wanted it too. I wrote lines here and there on how I was feeling those days and soon enough I was able to make a full song about the things I was going through. The emotion and aggression I put this microphone through sparked the idea of using that beat for the concept of the song. Songwriting is different for every artist, and for me writing a few lines a day on exactly what I’m feeling allows me to paint a clearer picture for any life story I want to talk about. Sometimes the idea of a song can linger for months, yet only a few nights to fully write.
For the first verse I wanted to address the connotation that my music should only center around relationships. The music I make is more than broken relationships and lost love, it’s whatever it is my heart is going through at the time. There will always be something to write about because life will always give you hills and mountains to climb over. Sometimes that’s love and other times it’s not having enough to pay for gas to get to work. I write music to help me cope with day to day life and whatever is lingering on my mind is what you will hear.
The second verse ties into the first but with more direct lyrics. And what I mean by “direct” is that some of those lines actually occurred that day when i was writing them. Towards the end of this verse there is a set of lines that I feel is the heart of the song and embodies the overall concept of the track, “Nobody gets it no matter what I’m confessing. If I told you where I’m hurting no one’s down to address it. They hear my words not the message, baby I’m used to this lesson..” The majority of the time I see a lot of people listening to music for the rhythm of the track but not the message that it holds. At times I see that with the music I create and it does get frustrating because there is an underlying theme to everything I create. Maybe I’m just even too deep for my own good lol.
The last part of the song I wanted to be straight forward as I can be. I wanted this part to resonate the most with whoever listens and it did take a while to write. I wanted the lyrics to be just as intense as the vocal performance and it’s awesome to see everyone enjoying this part the most. I tie together the last two verses with the lines, “I could care less who you think I am, all of you I can see through. Kids want to rap, I do this cause I need too..” I do this because it’s a form of therapy for me and being myself, saying what I need to say, is the most important part about making music. Just be yourself, let out what you need to let out.